Probably An Epilog
Back then, I believe that It's all over.
I've been trying to move on so far. Well, move on maybe sounds too much. Let's say I've been trying to let go all the burdens. I'm trying to continue my life, open my mind as wide as I can, spending more time with all of my friends and slowly improving my life. I was slowly healing my anxiety and my life seems getting more fine.
Until I saw him in one morning.
He showed up in my kitchen. Doing his first job as a part time baker.
And suddenly I feel my world falls apart.
It's like a super flash back. All those good and bad memories flashing on my mind. We just starring each other for a while and passing through away. I lost my words. And so did him. We were surprised. If I could being selfish, the only person who got fully surprise is absolutely me because before he decided to work in my place, he should knew that I worked there.
Okay, let's forget that part.
At the very beginning of our reunion, he didn't even talk to me. Anger and disguised were the only thing that I could see from him. I should understand that after what I did to him that night. And I did regret. And so I didn't try to approach him. All of my friends who knows our story were asking me if I feel okay because it's like something impossible to happen. But for me, it's simply too dramatic.
One day he started to talk to me. It's a simple hello, and casual jokes that he used to say back when we were still a good friend. I feel happy but I didn't expecting too much anymore.
Well, above of what happen (again) between us, I'm just glad that you are fine. Seeing you again and we are cool now is one of the best thing in my life.
I don't know whether we are meant to be together or not. But somehow, I always feel that there's something unfinished between us. We haven't start anything, right? So why the hell I think that we had something back then although I believe you feel nothing more than just a friend. Silly isn't it>
Sweetheart,
It's hard for me to love somebody. When I do, I'll do it deeply. And to you it's true that you are the person that I've been searching for. And you already know that.
If back in the days I was too obsessed to be with you, now I realize that I couldn't force you to love me back because love is all about sacrifices. I sacrificed my life, my time with my friends and family, move to this big city, one of the biggest reason is to be with you. And if it is not enough, then probably I should try harder.
A lot of thing pops out in my mind when I think about you.
What about if one day you date somebody? What about if one day, it's me who found somebody that can replace you?
I don't know. I'm blind.
For now, I still believe that we can be something in the future because we have the same great big vision. And I believe that a big thing needs a big efforts so I should fight for it.
There's a quote that I read yesterday, it says
Until then, I still trust you,
Sweetheart.
And suddenly I feel my world falls apart.
It's like a super flash back. All those good and bad memories flashing on my mind. We just starring each other for a while and passing through away. I lost my words. And so did him. We were surprised. If I could being selfish, the only person who got fully surprise is absolutely me because before he decided to work in my place, he should knew that I worked there.
Okay, let's forget that part.
At the very beginning of our reunion, he didn't even talk to me. Anger and disguised were the only thing that I could see from him. I should understand that after what I did to him that night. And I did regret. And so I didn't try to approach him. All of my friends who knows our story were asking me if I feel okay because it's like something impossible to happen. But for me, it's simply too dramatic.
One day he started to talk to me. It's a simple hello, and casual jokes that he used to say back when we were still a good friend. I feel happy but I didn't expecting too much anymore.
Well, above of what happen (again) between us, I'm just glad that you are fine. Seeing you again and we are cool now is one of the best thing in my life.
I don't know whether we are meant to be together or not. But somehow, I always feel that there's something unfinished between us. We haven't start anything, right? So why the hell I think that we had something back then although I believe you feel nothing more than just a friend. Silly isn't it>
Sweetheart,
It's hard for me to love somebody. When I do, I'll do it deeply. And to you it's true that you are the person that I've been searching for. And you already know that.
If back in the days I was too obsessed to be with you, now I realize that I couldn't force you to love me back because love is all about sacrifices. I sacrificed my life, my time with my friends and family, move to this big city, one of the biggest reason is to be with you. And if it is not enough, then probably I should try harder.
A lot of thing pops out in my mind when I think about you.
What about if one day you date somebody? What about if one day, it's me who found somebody that can replace you?
I don't know. I'm blind.
For now, I still believe that we can be something in the future because we have the same great big vision. And I believe that a big thing needs a big efforts so I should fight for it.
There's a quote that I read yesterday, it says
"Will you trust me when my answer is wait?"
Until then, I still trust you,
Sweetheart.
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